The Dead Poet

Remember when I sang to you to help you get to sleep,
Wiped away the tears you cried whenever you did weep,
Remember when I held you, all the times that he was drunk,
Set unrequited love aside to make you feel at home.

I fought a war for many years against the heart within my chest,
Where your visage made itself at home and dubbed itself a guest,
And finally you fell for me and I dared to just believe,
That all my wishes had come true, a love of which I’d dreamed.

Do you recall a subtle smile felt amidst a kiss,
A feeling oh so fleeting, yet strangely also bliss,
The memories they play for me, of things you did not see,
The moon and stars, I made them ours, and yet it could not be.

You gave your love to many and left me the remains,
The wishes that I spent on you were squandered all in vain,
Forgotten and alone I wrap myself in memories,
And dream that it was different as remembrance disagrees.

You built yourself castle and you threw away the key,
Hid your heart inside its halls and left it there to bleed.

With words you wished were sticks and stones your friends and family hurt you,
Left you crying all alone with not a thought to virtue.

Your wounded heart is bleeding but you’ve hidden it away,
Within a ransacked castle deeply set in disarray.

The key’s been lost so you will need a thief to steal your heart,
From all of the protection you’ve been building from the start.

Before you know you’re smiling he has broken down your walls,
Stole the pieces of your heart and put them back to whole.

You built yourself a castle to meet yourself a thief,
Yet the univited thieves are those who truly cause your grief.

Do you recall the fairy tales I always wished were real,
The things I dreamed, the love I held, the things I made you feel?

Do you recall your smile as I gently brushed your lips,
The smiles you would give me in between each subtle kiss?

Do you recall the memories of the Knight I used to be,
The ideals, the armor and the man you wished from me?

I find myself remembering the things I felt back then,
Before this time of wandering, before it had to end.

Do you remember me, when you’re sleeping in his arms,
The Knight in shining armor who used to keep you warm?

The memories all haunt me, like a film on my lids,
That I forget a moment is a bliss which God forbids.

I wish you all the best while I slowly fall apart,
The memories you had with me were faded at the start.

A Knight who loses faith in the ideals he protects,
Has nothing left to greet him but a lonely, painful death.

You took my Knighthood and my heart and broke them both to bits,
Now all I have to comfort me are the saudades’ cries for bliss…

I’ve never really met you, I assume your tears are real,
But there’s no reason that should be the way you always feel,
I’m sorry this world hurt you, I know it can be cruel,
But sometimes if you smile that wont always be the rule.

You see yourself as worthless, but that’s far from the truth,
A mirror should be all I need to prove that much to you,
Just because some people lie and try to steal your smile,
Doesn’t mean there’s none around who think that you’re worthwhile.

So dry your salty tears away and smile bright for me,
I promise all this misery will vanish in relief.

Step into my fairy tale, this story made of gold,
I’ll drag the moon out of the sky for a lovely hand to hold.
Step into my story, transformed from mine to ours,
Walk beneath your moonlight and stroll among our stars.

This world of mine may not be real but I’ll give it all to you,
My hopes, my dreams, the little things, the azure skies so blue,
Romance is a specialty, but not the fleeting kind,
So step into my storyline and set aside some time.

Forever is a fantasy found by you and I,
So walk into my wistful wish and plan to stay awhile.

I told you I would run away,
And you said that you would find me,
A silly promise, never kept,
I guess you need reminding.

I’m the guy your eyes pass over as they make their way to him,
And you think that I don’t notice, for I wear this crooked grin,
My grin is not a smile but a smirk full of contempt,
For I watch your eyes pass by me as if I were exempt.

Cry yourself to sleep wishing for a love that’s oh so true,
All the while passing over what’s in front of you,
Eyes that are so tired and a grin that never wins,
I appologize for my appearance, please do seek within.

Souls are not shown publicly, contrary to belief,
Thus your eyes pass by me and never seem to meet,
My little private smile, a mockery of you,
For I know the wishes made at night, alone towards the moon.

You may call me bitter, you may call me many names,
I earned each and every misnomer from others just the same,
I’m the guy with tired eyes that watches you pass by,
And you will never notice but I will never cry.

tsukinushi:

A gentle boy with innocence apparent in his eyes,
Is approached by soldiers bearing news upon the tides,
An epic war is coming and the king’s recruiting help,
So, boy, just put your innocence away upon the shelf.

The choiceless boy just nodded as he took up his new sword,
Marching off to…

tsukinushi:

They give me pills to make me better but I don’t feel well at all,
They tell me to just love myself and learn to stand up tall,
How is it you stand up tall with a mountain on your back,
The crippling weight of knowing all the needed things you lack.

These pills, they do not help me, and…

tsukinushi:

Hate breeds with injustice to spawn inequality,
It spreads amongst the people, this horrible disease,
Ignorance is bliss, they say, the shepheards to the sheep,
The flock, it swallows all the lies in comfortable relief.

Free thought is discouraged by the ruling entity,
Proud, collective…